Altruistic, Extrovert, Being Practical, Being Positive, A good to all personality.... Is this what I am....? Or.... A Stupid, Crazy, Idiotic, Freaking crank.... ?
I really don't know..!! I've been trying to be practical, open and outspoken.... thinking that is the best way to have a guilt free mind and more over I wont hurt someone..... But being so has always been proven wrong to me.... Embarrassing and arrogant... this is what the feedbacks of the people whom got hurt by my so called practicality.
I think I have developed myself a character which makes me the person exactly the opposite of what I intended to be.... Today an incident made me realize this idiotic way I'm handling things for myself..... I hurt someone whom I never meant to do so.... In fact I just wanted to keep something under control but ended up screwing myself up.
I have to think again the way I behave among others.... The way I handle things with people..... The way I speak... The way I express my thoughts.... The whole freaking social face of mine has to be changed....
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Sunday, December 24, 2006
Here In Back Again....
What am I doing here...... What keeps me coming back in here. In fact the truth is..... I always wanted to get in here and start writing something. But...... after posting some blogs.... my intention started fading away..... I wasn't really caring to spend even an hour of mine for this. Its the blogging I'm talking about......
Yes.... The urge that provoked me to start blogging...... its the same urge kept me out of it. The quest for new things once lead me here. But the same quest drove me off from spending a little time for penning my thoughts as words in this.... Is it Good....
Nope..... Theoretically, keen to learn & explore new things is good. But..... it really isn't as it may seem. It doesn't matter that you know many things..... What matters is how much you really know in the things you really have known. I do browse for hours reading articles, One day an Article about Atlantis the next day an Article about the socialization in Mars..... But all this is none if I'm not strong in what I'm.
I'm really finding it hard to keep me on track. But my mind finds its way of getting out of it.... always. Now that I have set it on track once again. I really don't know how long I will be able to hold on.....
Yes.... The urge that provoked me to start blogging...... its the same urge kept me out of it. The quest for new things once lead me here. But the same quest drove me off from spending a little time for penning my thoughts as words in this.... Is it Good....
Nope..... Theoretically, keen to learn & explore new things is good. But..... it really isn't as it may seem. It doesn't matter that you know many things..... What matters is how much you really know in the things you really have known. I do browse for hours reading articles, One day an Article about Atlantis the next day an Article about the socialization in Mars..... But all this is none if I'm not strong in what I'm.
I'm really finding it hard to keep me on track. But my mind finds its way of getting out of it.... always. Now that I have set it on track once again. I really don't know how long I will be able to hold on.....
Thursday, September 14, 2006
Moment of Pride....
Ah... its just another day in my office... And as usuall I was preparing my coffee to make a fresh start....
Its been 3 weeks since I joined this office and still I feel very new here... may be because of the isolated environment of my team from the rest of office...Its a usuall Corporate Confidential thing..... Ok I will come to the point.... While I was making my coffee, there came an old man, an old american as usuall sounding loud and standing brisk.... I have seen him earlier once or twice but haven't paid attention to him... He was the guy who takes care of filling up the cafeteria with the needed items....
But today he said a "Good Morning" and I wished him back... and he continued further....
Oldie : "Ur name should not me Patel else u would look different"....
Me : "Ofcourse not. My name is Arvin"..... (Its not easy to teach these people how to spell our Indian names with proper syllable)
He was talking about a "Patel" he knew, for whom he had built a house...... (These people know lot of work) and he said one thing which at the moment made me so proud to be what I am..... "People from your country are very productive and they are an asset to the country where they are...." he continued..."There are many people who come to this country and the first thing they do is register in the Employment office... U cannot see an Indian in a low profile job..... they will be either industrialist or in high technical jobs..." He said this with from his heart and not just because for the conversation sake.....
I had no word but thanked him with a pride filled heart..... "East or West India is always the Best....."
Once again I'm very proud to be an Indian..... "Jai Hind"
Its been 3 weeks since I joined this office and still I feel very new here... may be because of the isolated environment of my team from the rest of office...Its a usuall Corporate Confidential thing..... Ok I will come to the point.... While I was making my coffee, there came an old man, an old american as usuall sounding loud and standing brisk.... I have seen him earlier once or twice but haven't paid attention to him... He was the guy who takes care of filling up the cafeteria with the needed items....
But today he said a "Good Morning" and I wished him back... and he continued further....
Oldie : "Ur name should not me Patel else u would look different"....
Me : "Ofcourse not. My name is Arvin"..... (Its not easy to teach these people how to spell our Indian names with proper syllable)
He was talking about a "Patel" he knew, for whom he had built a house...... (These people know lot of work) and he said one thing which at the moment made me so proud to be what I am..... "People from your country are very productive and they are an asset to the country where they are...." he continued..."There are many people who come to this country and the first thing they do is register in the Employment office... U cannot see an Indian in a low profile job..... they will be either industrialist or in high technical jobs..." He said this with from his heart and not just because for the conversation sake.....
I had no word but thanked him with a pride filled heart..... "East or West India is always the Best....."
Once again I'm very proud to be an Indian..... "Jai Hind"
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
New York....
A city of Sky Scrapers...... The worlds most easily recognized Sky Line.... Americas rudest city (No offese please).... Offcialy named as New York but has many more name on its own.....
Only after this trip to New York, I got satisfied of being in US.... Yes... unless u visit a city like New York, there is no use in coming to US. When the city skyline first came to my sight it was so exciting, like a dream come true..... It was like seeing a wallpaper. After entering the city walking in the busy streets of New York.... I was at the peak of excitement..... Buildings standing as if they are the pillars to hold the sky.... I had to bend my head backwards completely as far as possible to see the buildings from its foot.... And still... I cant even see the second fold of the Empire State... the standing gaint of New York. It is sad that the rivals WTC is nomore..... but still in ground zero we can feel the panic....
The best place to start the tour in New York is the Liberty Statue... which will be of a half a day ride.... It is really amazing to see one of the identity of US.... The gift of France to US as a sign for their friendship....
The next on line to see should be the Empire State building which will put u on top of New York... It makes u feel the ability of man to reach new heights.... It is an outstanding view to see the Sky Line of New York in a evening where you will be able to see both the day light and the night time view of the metro..... Its the first time I'm seeing such a view, which revealed how organised the city is..... Townplaning is one masterpiece that maintains the city on top....
Other than the regular tourist spots like USS Interpid museum, Wax Museum, Central Park.... The New York streets itself are an amazing place to walk around.... Amidst the mass of this huge metro we can meet the whole world..... Chinese, Africans, Europeans and most of all our own Indians.....
Time Square..... the place that never sleeps... With the worlds most renowned corporates and milloares lined in the street, it is an outstanding view to look at the city streets from the center of the square near the Ball Drop pole....
It is tough to explain about New York in one single posting... but to cut short I have just blogged the top on the line things.... But there are many more like Port Authority, Madison Square Garden, Rockefeller Plaza, New York Helicoptor ride, Yatch ride in Hudson, Brooklyn, Wallstreet, Nasdaq.... and many more.....
A normal weekend will not be enough to enjoy even one half of New Yorks glory....If you are planning a trip.... plan on a looong weekend....
Only after this trip to New York, I got satisfied of being in US.... Yes... unless u visit a city like New York, there is no use in coming to US. When the city skyline first came to my sight it was so exciting, like a dream come true..... It was like seeing a wallpaper. After entering the city walking in the busy streets of New York.... I was at the peak of excitement..... Buildings standing as if they are the pillars to hold the sky.... I had to bend my head backwards completely as far as possible to see the buildings from its foot.... And still... I cant even see the second fold of the Empire State... the standing gaint of New York. It is sad that the rivals WTC is nomore..... but still in ground zero we can feel the panic....
The best place to start the tour in New York is the Liberty Statue... which will be of a half a day ride.... It is really amazing to see one of the identity of US.... The gift of France to US as a sign for their friendship....
The next on line to see should be the Empire State building which will put u on top of New York... It makes u feel the ability of man to reach new heights.... It is an outstanding view to see the Sky Line of New York in a evening where you will be able to see both the day light and the night time view of the metro..... Its the first time I'm seeing such a view, which revealed how organised the city is..... Townplaning is one masterpiece that maintains the city on top....
Other than the regular tourist spots like USS Interpid museum, Wax Museum, Central Park.... The New York streets itself are an amazing place to walk around.... Amidst the mass of this huge metro we can meet the whole world..... Chinese, Africans, Europeans and most of all our own Indians.....
Time Square..... the place that never sleeps... With the worlds most renowned corporates and milloares lined in the street, it is an outstanding view to look at the city streets from the center of the square near the Ball Drop pole....
It is tough to explain about New York in one single posting... but to cut short I have just blogged the top on the line things.... But there are many more like Port Authority, Madison Square Garden, Rockefeller Plaza, New York Helicoptor ride, Yatch ride in Hudson, Brooklyn, Wallstreet, Nasdaq.... and many more.....
A normal weekend will not be enough to enjoy even one half of New Yorks glory....If you are planning a trip.... plan on a looong weekend....
Thursday, June 29, 2006
My Sister....Forever...
Today I lost my sister...... and I'm blogin here with my heart full of grief..... "Lost is lost and cannot be gained back" atleast I have the privilege to express about her at this juncture....
Bamini...... A Clever... Charming...Smart... Beautiful... Thoughtfull...Humourous...Lively... Energetic..... gal I have ever met in in my life.... She was a gal who I always wished to be with as a brother. She told me once "U are teasing me a lot... as my brother always used to do.....". From then... I started calling her as "my dear sister".... One and only sister I ever had with the same wavelength. I have no blood companions and I wish I had a elder sister from my childhood. But I got her only in at a later part of my life still it is not that late and I was happy for that.
She was one lively and energetic person who always had a smile in her face.... Even now I remember only her smiling face. She is like me.... Who reveals her self only to person she is intimate with. Today her love has taken her to heaven.... and leaving all her memories as an ever lasting trace in me.
There are times where she had hurt me at my possesiveness.... she had teased me at my kiddish nature.... she had adviced me at of my anger..... she had helped at my tough times.... and she never let me a chance in helping her out of her problems..... I still wish I should have been there in India at this time.... Atleast I could have seen her face for one last time..... I think she always wanted to me to remember her smiling face......
My sister....
Our relation may have lasted brief....
But today I'm full of grief....
With all your memories in me.....
I'm sure U will always be there with me....
Its just the end of ur life.....
But I'm sure there is no ending for ur love.....
No one can replace U for sure....
Now that U have filled in my heart forever....
Anything excess is tough to express thru words.... And I'm feeling it now.... So far I haven't lost a loved one..... But it is really hard to digest that U are first on the list.....
Rest in peace my sister.... Will join U once my time comes for me.....
Bamini...... A Clever... Charming...Smart... Beautiful... Thoughtfull...Humourous...Lively... Energetic..... gal I have ever met in in my life.... She was a gal who I always wished to be with as a brother. She told me once "U are teasing me a lot... as my brother always used to do.....". From then... I started calling her as "my dear sister".... One and only sister I ever had with the same wavelength. I have no blood companions and I wish I had a elder sister from my childhood. But I got her only in at a later part of my life still it is not that late and I was happy for that.
She was one lively and energetic person who always had a smile in her face.... Even now I remember only her smiling face. She is like me.... Who reveals her self only to person she is intimate with. Today her love has taken her to heaven.... and leaving all her memories as an ever lasting trace in me.
There are times where she had hurt me at my possesiveness.... she had teased me at my kiddish nature.... she had adviced me at of my anger..... she had helped at my tough times.... and she never let me a chance in helping her out of her problems..... I still wish I should have been there in India at this time.... Atleast I could have seen her face for one last time..... I think she always wanted to me to remember her smiling face......
My sister....
Our relation may have lasted brief....
But today I'm full of grief....
With all your memories in me.....
I'm sure U will always be there with me....
Its just the end of ur life.....
But I'm sure there is no ending for ur love.....
No one can replace U for sure....
Now that U have filled in my heart forever....
Anything excess is tough to express thru words.... And I'm feeling it now.... So far I haven't lost a loved one..... But it is really hard to digest that U are first on the list.....
Rest in peace my sister.... Will join U once my time comes for me.....
Monday, June 26, 2006
My First Camping....
Camping... One of the most exciting out door activity here in US....
Ofcourse it was very much exciting for me, after all its my first..... Infact till the morning the plan was not at all in my schedule.... and when we were out for a fag after a good breakfast my friends started talking about the this.... And from then I was all set for the camping....
But still the plan was so obscure as the weather was threatning us.... with its dark clouds and thunders.... Still it cant stop us from setting out for the trip.... We start from Salem around 10.00 in the morning with an alternative if the weather has sued us.... and that was the Hampton Beach a really live beach with lots of babes and fun....
We traveled for around 2 hours and stopped at a town side restaurant for lunch... As usuall I started looking different dishes and then I thought..... If something goes bad..... then I would have to search for a water source all the time in the camping forest ;)..... So controlled myself and just ordered a Chicken Fried Rice..... but to my bad time not that good... but I'm happy atleast it didnt spoil my stomach....
From there we drove right to the foot of the gaint peak "The Mount Washington" which has its own credit.... "Home of the world's worst weather".... But it was calm when we went... probably it would have knew that I'm coming to see the summit..... At the office we got the complimentary information CD and a certificate for climbing the peak..... After few snaps in the foot of the gaint... we started our voyage in lower gears...... It was a 8 mile drive amidst which fantastic scearies and views of the hills of "White Mountains".... When we reached the hill top..... the weather was so calm as if it was welcoming us to see the amazing peak and the surrounding world.... And up there... We touched the Peak, Took a snap as if like we climbed as the first people.... spent a good time up there.
When we started our discend it was already 5.00 PM... By the time we touched the foot hill again the sky was fully blue and in complete contrast with the forecast..... Yahoooooo... we started executing Plan "A" the CAMPING.......
We chose a pleasant, silent and a beatifull camp ground in a bank of a unknown forest river... The camp site was "Dolly Copp" which is one of the well known in that area.... Once we set our tent we went to a near by town (infact a village) to get the food and fire logs. By the time we started the fire it was already 8.00 PM and the Sun has started telling bye to us....
The worst thing is we were able to start cooking only 9.00 PM by the time we have started seeing bright stars.... We are really late as we are near to the breakfast time of the forest natives the "American Black Bear" which were very wild and are very much used to human habitats....But still the excitement has hidden the fear.... and as the time moved on we were so enjoyin the fresh barbeque food under the dark skies.... Miss Moon was on vacation that day... My friends started telling all the camping stories and time got dissolved so fast... and only by 2.00 AM we realised we were the only humans awake by that time.... we thought of giving some rest to the forest and went in to the tent for sleeping.....
Next day the SUNDAY we set out for a mini treking...... inside the dense forests of White Mountains.... infact a 1 hour treking ;).... and wrapped up by 11.00 AM for a scenic drive...... We had our lunch pretty early at 12.00 AM as the "Kancamagus Byway" will only feed our eyes and not the stomach....
"Kancamagus Byway" the New Hampshire states most beautiful scenic drive with awesome view points all over the drive..... The first one was so good that I didnt even close my eyes for a second.... It was a small falls in one of the forest river which was suitable for taking bath.... mmmmm....... lots of cute chicks..... man.... it was aaaaaaawesome.... I felt so hard to leave all those white angels behind... but what to do..... I have to reach home by the nightfall.... With some bit of sadness in the corner of heart.... we finished the drive covering almost all the view points.... and reached Salem at around 5.00 PM.... thats it... my weekend was over...
But this was one another unforgettable weekend for me.....ever....
Ofcourse it was very much exciting for me, after all its my first..... Infact till the morning the plan was not at all in my schedule.... and when we were out for a fag after a good breakfast my friends started talking about the this.... And from then I was all set for the camping....
But still the plan was so obscure as the weather was threatning us.... with its dark clouds and thunders.... Still it cant stop us from setting out for the trip.... We start from Salem around 10.00 in the morning with an alternative if the weather has sued us.... and that was the Hampton Beach a really live beach with lots of babes and fun....
We traveled for around 2 hours and stopped at a town side restaurant for lunch... As usuall I started looking different dishes and then I thought..... If something goes bad..... then I would have to search for a water source all the time in the camping forest ;)..... So controlled myself and just ordered a Chicken Fried Rice..... but to my bad time not that good... but I'm happy atleast it didnt spoil my stomach....
From there we drove right to the foot of the gaint peak "The Mount Washington" which has its own credit.... "Home of the world's worst weather".... But it was calm when we went... probably it would have knew that I'm coming to see the summit..... At the office we got the complimentary information CD and a certificate for climbing the peak..... After few snaps in the foot of the gaint... we started our voyage in lower gears...... It was a 8 mile drive amidst which fantastic scearies and views of the hills of "White Mountains".... When we reached the hill top..... the weather was so calm as if it was welcoming us to see the amazing peak and the surrounding world.... And up there... We touched the Peak, Took a snap as if like we climbed as the first people.... spent a good time up there.
When we started our discend it was already 5.00 PM... By the time we touched the foot hill again the sky was fully blue and in complete contrast with the forecast..... Yahoooooo... we started executing Plan "A" the CAMPING.......
We chose a pleasant, silent and a beatifull camp ground in a bank of a unknown forest river... The camp site was "Dolly Copp" which is one of the well known in that area.... Once we set our tent we went to a near by town (infact a village) to get the food and fire logs. By the time we started the fire it was already 8.00 PM and the Sun has started telling bye to us....
The worst thing is we were able to start cooking only 9.00 PM by the time we have started seeing bright stars.... We are really late as we are near to the breakfast time of the forest natives the "American Black Bear" which were very wild and are very much used to human habitats....But still the excitement has hidden the fear.... and as the time moved on we were so enjoyin the fresh barbeque food under the dark skies.... Miss Moon was on vacation that day... My friends started telling all the camping stories and time got dissolved so fast... and only by 2.00 AM we realised we were the only humans awake by that time.... we thought of giving some rest to the forest and went in to the tent for sleeping.....
Next day the SUNDAY we set out for a mini treking...... inside the dense forests of White Mountains.... infact a 1 hour treking ;).... and wrapped up by 11.00 AM for a scenic drive...... We had our lunch pretty early at 12.00 AM as the "Kancamagus Byway" will only feed our eyes and not the stomach....
"Kancamagus Byway" the New Hampshire states most beautiful scenic drive with awesome view points all over the drive..... The first one was so good that I didnt even close my eyes for a second.... It was a small falls in one of the forest river which was suitable for taking bath.... mmmmm....... lots of cute chicks..... man.... it was aaaaaaawesome.... I felt so hard to leave all those white angels behind... but what to do..... I have to reach home by the nightfall.... With some bit of sadness in the corner of heart.... we finished the drive covering almost all the view points.... and reached Salem at around 5.00 PM.... thats it... my weekend was over...
But this was one another unforgettable weekend for me.....ever....
Thursday, June 15, 2006
Back into Action....
So finally I found sometime to write my second posting.... ;)
Really I'm not that busy..... But so lazy to sit and blog..... But now that I have decided...."A BLOG every day keeps my lazy ness away".....
Ya its true that if I could develop this habit... I can be so updated on things.... Let me give a try and see... what else I could find to bore you with....
May this blog be my smallest posting of all....
Really I'm not that busy..... But so lazy to sit and blog..... But now that I have decided...."A BLOG every day keeps my lazy ness away".....
Ya its true that if I could develop this habit... I can be so updated on things.... Let me give a try and see... what else I could find to bore you with....
May this blog be my smallest posting of all....
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Itz Me.....
World, always is funny.... Which is how I'm seeing it. May be its something around me which always full of fun. In fact it is always so with me....
Who makes it to be so... Itz me always.... For me the World around you is the one you created.
Some how I like my World of how it is with me... I wish the same to every one...
For me my destination is always getting farther from me.... And still I like to keep on moving towards it.... Yes its infact good too... funny though....
Lots in my list which is about to get blogged here... I wish not to excite your blog search with mine ;-)... and so cutting my first one to be a short one....
Who makes it to be so... Itz me always.... For me the World around you is the one you created.
Some how I like my World of how it is with me... I wish the same to every one...
For me my destination is always getting farther from me.... And still I like to keep on moving towards it.... Yes its infact good too... funny though....
Lots in my list which is about to get blogged here... I wish not to excite your blog search with mine ;-)... and so cutting my first one to be a short one....
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