I am Who I am...!! Am I really such an idiot....?

Altruistic, Extrovert, Being Practical, Being Positive, A good to all personality.... Is this what I am....? Or.... A Stupid, Crazy, Idiotic, Freaking crank.... ?

I really don't know..!! I've been trying to be practical, open and outspoken.... thinking that is the best way to have a guilt free mind and more over I wont hurt someone..... But being so has always been proven wrong to me.... Embarrassing and arrogant... this is what the feedbacks of the people whom got hurt by my so called practicality.

I think I have developed myself a character which makes me the person exactly the opposite of what I intended to be.... Today an incident made me realize this idiotic way I'm handling things for myself..... I hurt someone whom I never meant to do so.... In fact I just wanted to keep something under control but ended up screwing myself up.

I have to think again the way I behave among others.... The way I handle things with people..... The way I speak... The way I express my thoughts.... The whole freaking social face of mine has to be changed....

Here In Back Again....

What am I doing here...... What keeps me coming back in here. In fact the truth is..... I always wanted to get in here and start writing something. But...... after posting some blogs.... my intention started fading away..... I wasn't really caring to spend even an hour of mine for this. Its the blogging I'm talking about......

Yes.... The urge that provoked me to start blogging...... its the same urge kept me out of it. The quest for new things once lead me here. But the same quest drove me off from spending a little time for penning my thoughts as words in this.... Is it Good....

Nope..... Theoretically, keen to learn & explore new things is good. But..... it really isn't as it may seem. It doesn't matter that you know many things..... What matters is how much you really know in the things you really have known. I do browse for hours reading articles, One day an Article about Atlantis the next day an Article about the socialization in Mars..... But all this is none if I'm not strong in what I'm.

I'm really finding it hard to keep me on track. But my mind finds its way of getting out of it.... always. Now that I have set it on track once again. I really don't know how long I will be able to hold on.....